cut me some slack, man...

Well, Sadie is back in the hospital today and she is looking really bad. Her chest is full of fluid, her heart is enlarged and she's having trouble moving and breathing. Her tummy is very distended as well. I'm just about to lose it folks. I'm waiting to hear back from the vet...they're doing more x-rays and blood tests. WTF? Seeing a sick beagle looking up into your eyes pleading for help is a crusher. The prospect of more loss feels..................not good. If Sadie survives the weekend, I'm terrified I can't get her well enough to be stable while I have surgery and am in the hospital. I suppose I could pay for her to be watched in the hospital...I don't know if they'll do that. My head is spinning and my heart is breaking. And I can't do a fucking thing about it.