one hairy mess...

Well, today was my last day of fieldwork (internship) until I return after surgery. Surgery is next Tuesday and I'm getting a little more tense than I thought I would. I think it's mostly because I've been in such a rush and things are falling apart faster than I can put them back together. Our heat has gone out twice in the past two weeks and Sadie, my beagle mix dog, is very sick. We had to rush her to the vet yesterday. She either has pancreatitis or a blockage. She's not showing any interest in food so I'm getting wary about whether or not she's swallowed something that has her intestines blocked. She's very uncomfortable and is on meds and a high-fiber, bland diet to see if she gets better. If she's not a good bit better by this evening I'm going to get her back to the vet tomorrow...not that I have anything ELSE to do. But she comes first, so...sheesh. Not to mention a good friend's mom just died of cancer and I feel terrible that I missed the funeral...I was cleaning out Daddy's house that day. Perhaps it was best to stay away from the funeral home. It's getting harder, not easier, to remove things from his house because the house and property could sell while I'm recovering. Not being able to go back is going to kill me. Shit, I'm not going to get off on that today. I don't have enough battery left to start that discussion.

I did get to transport a rescue dog last weekend, but I haven't had time to post anything about it. Her name was Vandy and I wanted to take her home! She was such a sweetheart. I'll try to eventually get a pic up.

I have A LOT to get done at work before surgery, but I swear I've got the "deer-in-the-headlights" syndrome. I need to do some deep breathing and just tackle the list.

Deep breath. It. will. be. ok.

Sorry I haven't been to anyone's blogs or even had much time to respond to such supportive and sweet comments. They have definitely all lifted me up on the worst of days. It will probably be after surgery before I write again. Wish me luck.